cny

i really don't know what's the big deal abt cny
my cousins and i have too much of an age gap/diff in personality
they're either too old or too young or they're guys
O-O
totally conflicting interests
what the hell am i supposed to talk to them abt ???
Mayday ?? Jason Mraz ?? Mentos sour mix ?????
omg wtf i don't really care what they're going through and they don't care abt me too

i have a 25(or therabouts) yr old female cousin getting married on 28.02.2009

must.lose.weight

freak omg i only have a mth o_O

and i must save money omg i'm depleting my resources on food omg i don't even know where all my money goes omg it just disappears omg why can't my fats disappear like that too omg why don't i have money omg i really want to go mayday's concert omg but the tics are like $178 and the cheapest (where you can only see ants) are $88 freak want to go there listen to them also no money omg i thought last time the tics are like so much cheaper like ever since the don't-know-which-diva (i think it was kylie minogue or stephanie sun or something) that started the ulta-exp tics trend omg i don't have money omg shit i feel depressed omg i might not get in np omg omg omg omg omg

then i'd be in a deep rut

cheers : happy cny peeps

i hate how brainless i am

i'm like a sheep following the crowd
omg so utterly brainless

i always get myself too affected by the things happening around me
:) smile and be happy (:

on the first day of 2009

i worked
which may be a good start for a year
since i expect myself to work very hard in order to retake my 'a' lvls and handle poly work as well

i need to make it

and i will

hopefully

surely

maybe